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Vexation

Dang, I'm yearning to go out, especially heading town now. Esplanade. I seriously hate this feeling whereby my freedom's limited. Age seventeen and still being treated this way. My conduct have been good all this while though I misbehave at times with lies and all.

Think about it.What's the reason for me lying to cover the stuff that you odd to know?? I extremely dislike lying too. How I wish I can be telling you my thoughts my feelings like how I shared it with my BestFriends? Being my elder brother, you just don't know how much I love you despite how you controlled me. How I wished we can be each other listening ears and friends? All for my good? I know, I truly understand, but that shouldn't be the reasons at all the times. I won't be that dumb to hurt myself by having sex with someone else when I'm not ready for any responsilities. I've claimed that I've grown up, able to think for myself, cant you give me the chance to shine and show it to you that I can be trusted? All I need is a healthy teenage life,freedom, can you grant me that? The fact is I can't have what I longed for. Ahh fuck.

Okay stop.
Anyway, pardon me. I just feel like letting this out.